So Much To Tell You

butthetruthis:

But the truth is…

The shockingly cruel comment they wrote before ”lol” shows how they really feel.  They just needed something to soften it.

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I’m upset, very upset. Why do you have to act this way? Have you no heart? No feelings? Don’t you realize how much it hurts?

Baby, I’m not stupid. I can tell when you’re acting all weird. I know something is up. You can’t keep acting very abnormally and expect me just to let it slide every time. You owe me an explanation.

Please stop making me feel worthless because its really breaking my heart. I let you inside my life, I handed you my heart, the least you could do is be gentle with it :(

butthetruthis:

But the truth is…

That’s what everyone does!  We tend to look out for people who look out for us.  And what’s wrong with that?  Nothing.  The only people who complain about “no one looking out” for them are people who don’t do jack for anyone else.

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picquotes:

Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. — Thomas Edison

I cannot even start this letter with “Dear X” because, no, you’re not dear, you’re anything but that!

I’ll tell you what you are. You’re a liar and a sick predator. You’re manipulative and so simply put, you’re nothing but a part of this world’s insignificant matter; you occupy space but you don’t matter.

You disgust me. Your manipulative nature makes me sick.

I believed that you were a good. I gave you chances. I cut you lotsa slack but you deserved NONE.

Its too late you know? Your calls, texts, IMs, aren’t going to make me forget that you are not who I thought you were or who you pretended to be.

You borught this to yourself. I don’t care anymore whether you need me in your life because I sure as hell don’t want you in mine. so, please, step aside, man up and accept the consequences of your shameful, narcissistic actions.

I don’t want anything to do with you, so leave me the hell alone.

Today, like in a lot of different occasions, I wished I could say something.

The story of my life:

I get hurt, disappointed, used, pissed, furious and I always, ALWAYS, find a reason not to say anything, to stay quiet!

I am not a very social person, I keep to myself, I take my time making relationships. I would rather be alone than be with people who would make me feel bad for any reason. I have ZERO tolerance for people who give me $h!t. I just simply pretend they don’t exist anymore; saves me a lot of trouble.

So, why this post?

I have a friend who so suddenly and unexpectedly totally changed! I was in shock. I thought about it over and over again and couldn’t come up with a reasonable explanation to why did he change!

Ages later, I see him and he speaks to me as if nothing had ever happened. He even dared asking me if everything was okay because apparently I’m acting a bit different. Seriously, shoot me. Is he really that oblivious to what he had done?

All I could think about after this incident is how much I wanted to tell him that of course I’m acting different, I have all the right. You made me go through a lot just trying to figure out where I went wrong. The sad thing is, I couldn’t even tell him I missed him. I didn’t even ask why he did what he did. I just said, I’m okay.

SERIOUSLY, SHOOT ME

Every time something like this happens I tell myself it’ll be the last time I let it happen, next time I’ll say something but history always repeats itself *sigh*

Dear Friend (or were we?)

I miss you. I miss all the conversations we used to have. I thought we friends. I thought were getting along. What happened? Did I unintentionally offend you? Did I suddenly become unworthy of your time?

I wonder how we reached this place. It all seems like a blur now. All the conversations and the fun. Was it all just a mere lie? I don’t understand. How could we just fall apart like this?

I’m hurt, you know? You made me feel disposable, unworthy and replaceable. You made me feel cheap.

Still, I thank you for a good time we’ve spent knowing each other although it seems that made you decide I wasn’t worth knowing after all.

Be well

I have had a lot of conversations with a lot of people inside my head. Imagined a lot of different scenarios. None of which left the comfort zone of my brain. Here, I’m going to type them down and release them. Letters that I usually write and keep to myself.